From Under the Elder Tree

not sure the point

An herbalist that I admire passed away 2 months ago. He committed suicide. Wife said cod was “long time struggle from addiction, anxiety and depression.”

Yeah, I don’t really keep up on people or things so I’m just now hearing about it.

And it’s pretty heavy.

My dad passed 3 years ago from cirrhosis of the liver due to his alcoholism which stemmed from his depression.

He was a pretty cool guy. Played music, cooked good food, a head full of useless facts, smoked cheap cigars and could drink a pot of coffee by the time I had one cup.

That herbalist was really cool too. I knew him as a solid source of information, his tutorial videos were fun and educational, and I specifically remember that he taught me how to make salves.

I think it sucks that depression took out 2 pretty cool guys. They had good lives, people who loved them, careers.

But they aren’t here anymore because of untreated (or half ass treatment) depression.

I don’t know. Life does kind of suck and there’s nothing really to look forward to after you reach your “peak.” But still.

It leaves me with heavy thoughts and a heavy heart.

Welcome to my blog where we talk suicide and alcoholism in the first post.

Thanks for being here. :)