not a fan of 2025
I am generally a pretty optimistic person. Generally happy, slightly paranoid, but I have a pretty good outlook on life.
But to be honest, 2025 has kicked my ass.
I started a new dream job which turned out to be a toxic mess. I stayed there for two months, compromising my beliefs, abandoning the things that made me happy and stared at a screen all day.
My sister moved to Georgia with the love of her life. All my sober years, with a few intoxicated ones in between, we have lived next to each other. In my parents house, neighbor apartments and houses down the street. Now she’s gone.
My other sister who is an army vet who actually saw war and has ptsd which resulted in drug addiction, came back into the picture. She was a mess but it was nice to have her back. She just got arrested on drug charges.
My dad’s 3rd anniversary of his passing is on Monday. That’s all ima say about that.
My kids are young and happy and beautiful. But man, I’d give an arm to be left alone for a while.
That old job kept my brain occupied which was nice. Creating and engaging. Deadlines making sure I was producing. Now my brain is just left with the day to day cleaning monotony.
I’m frustrated and I’m tired. I don’t want to talk to anyone, I want to be alone. I went to an AA meeting today which was nice but didn’t really pick me up as I hoped.
Something’s going on with the moon I think but I have no idea what.
This fucking cat keeps knocking my crystals off my shelf just to be a douchebag.
I’m not a fan of this year. Not even about politics, the take over of technology or the fact that everyone I know is seriously struggling.
It’s just not happy and I don’t particularly like it and I’m not sure what to do about it.
It’s a drag man. Not even ganna go back and edit this post.